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| Friday, September 12, 2008
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As the title says, just be warned before reading:
You know, when life throws you curveballs, everyone just tells you to just either whack really hard at it or just let it pass you by. However, this curveball I experienced two days ago just hit me straight in the face. Sorry if I start speaking in analogies but there is simply now no easy way for me to express how I feel (or whether I really feel anything at all anymore).
The fact of life is that people of the world chase two big things in life – money and relationships. Many great people have flanked both sides of the argument, much like how the Democrats and Republicans go against one another. One side claims that having money does make the world go round and at time help you buy relationships. The other side claims that in your dying breath, money doesn’t matter to you anymore but what truly matters would be the people whom you hold dear to your heart and love. Similar argument to that would be the two ways people regard relationships – some are practical lovers who think that provision = love. Other more radical lovers think that emotions, feelings, physical presence and sometimes passion will tide people through the hardest of times.
Sure, when I was much younger and more stupid, I thought that what matters would be career and earning loads of money (or having a husband who will earn tons of money and buy me nice things) would make me happy. But as I took time to truly think of what I really wanted in life (which I have been thinking even before this curveball slammed in my face) – are relationships.
I thank God that I never had to be worried about finances because of His provision and I still stand by the fact that He will provide whatever I need and there is no need to worry about the lack of the greenback. But relationships need to be build, maintained, treasured and worked on, unlike money which could just fall right into your lap for sometimes the weirdest of reasons.
So now, I don’t really care about having a big house, a car or even a grand wedding. All I want now is just for the people I love to be there – for me to love and be loved. I would rather live a simple life with the people I love (have just a small house, have a family centered career, etc), than to have someone with loads of money or me having a high paying job, which does not allow me to see my family, and the people I love. If I wanted money, there were so many opportunities for me to get it but I am the radical lover who would rather not be rich but be happy.
I still have no idea what to feel about this whole curveball issue. I feel helpless, very much alone (since everyone is cheering for the other team) and I do not know what else. Right now, I am a blank – a very much heartbroken blank.
*Shanea Out (lost.) @ 9:52pm* |
posted by Jasmine Shanea @ 10:11 AM
 
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Hey.. a big hugs to you!!
If you ever feel the need for someone to listen to your problems (in this case read your problems..:P), do drop me an email anytime. I'll be there to offer you some friendly advice.. if not just a big hug and read.
Take care!
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I recently went through having to make a decision between the two and I'm glad I went the way I did. I chose relationships of course, and now I feel like the other thing, money, might be following suit in the near future. Of course, it may not always work out the same for everybody but I like to think that when you take care of your own heart, the rest will take care of itself. {{{hug}}}
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Thanks Sher. and fragileheart for the encouragements. I managed to work things out and I'm praying hard everything will work out just great. :)
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Sorry Jas, I'm not too good with this 'hug' thing. :)
But hey, look up. The world still goes round and tomorrow will be another new day. What really matters is your own perception of the stuff happening around you.
Cheers!!!
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how you doing? Sherry here. Its like long time I haven't comment on your blog. Feel free to check out my new blog :)
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Hey.. a big hugs to you!!
If you ever feel the need for someone to listen to your problems (in this case read your problems..:P), do drop me an email anytime. I'll be there to offer you some friendly advice.. if not just a big hug and read.
Take care!